Disgusted by Racism/Sexism

Its been a while since I posted, but I wanted to make a little post about what I've encountered on my quest for a job. I went to a meeting, and, at first, was treated very nicely. As the meeting went on, there were comments made which were less than nice. such as, you should just get married or I would hate to be you etc etc.

What I realized is, even the most well-meaning people can screw up once in a while and hurt other's feelings. Or maybe I just need to develop a thicker skin. My newest quest is to chant for racist/sexist people. I will chant that their eyes will be opened and they will realize they are creating more harm than good.

Although I may not be able to change everyone's thoughts, I know that through my actions and through my chanting, I can at least help change one person for the better.

Realizations...

When life gets difficult, chant more and help others, including yourself. This may seem very simple and you may be wondering why others? Shouldn't I help myself first before I can help others?

Yes and no. Helping others will help you understand your situation better. It will also help you feel better about yourself. Knowing that you have helped make a difference in someone else's life can help you understand that you are not hopeless.

I fell into this trap. For a while, I have been working at the best job ever, unfortunately, I don't have much left over for anything else. My SO is so patient with me and continues to help me get through these trying times. I have been searching for a job, but have been unable to find the one I want.

Since I was unable to find what I wanted, I decided to create my own opportunities. I am currently looking into creating my own law firm and am working with the Northwest Immigration Rights Project.

The stories of the clients who come for help inspire me every day. My suffering is nothing next to the persecution, torture, and pain they have been through and I seek to help relieve that through helping them stay in our country away from these problems.

In doing this, I found that I am making a difference in someone else's life. It is making me feel empowered with the knowledge that this difference could save them. I enjoy the feeling. I enjoy knowing that I can possibly help them change their life. Even though it is for free, it is something I needed to do. Even if there is no thank you, knowing that I have helped someone make a better life for themselves and helping them relieve their tears is enough for me. It gives me strength to continue on this long journey.

I have had some questions about how I chant. I chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo with my whole heart. I chant with purpose to change the my life and the lives of others for the better.

If you ever stumble along the way, please reach out to me. I will try to help put you back on your path.

More Job Hunting... More Chanting... More Waiting

I've been applying to a lot of jobs lately. I've been applying to places that aren't even looking -- with this economy, it does not look like my job hunt will be over any time soon. The problem is, I have student loans coming up and bills I have to pay. I can't live off my parents or my SO forever. I need to find something soon.

I hate to admit, but I'm slowly beginning to lose faith. I'd like to say that I am unwavering in my chanting and belief that something good will soon happen, but its been a while since I was laid off and there is nothing in the horizon. In fact, things are only getting increasingly worse. Due to my job loss things that would have happened already have been put off till a better time. I know there are a lot of people in the same boat as me, but I need something soon. I keep waiting and waiting and chanting and waiting and nothing seems to happen.

I will continue chanting and letting you all know how things are going, but right now, I am just at a loss. I need a job and some income soon.

I am chanting that I will receive an interview and a job offer by the end of this week. Please chant for me.

Deeper into the storm

I've been chanting more lately. I try to clear my mind and just chant because I dont want to be selfish when i'm chanting. I don't want to just be chanting about myself. In essence, I chant that this economic crisis will abate and that millions of people will find jobs that they lost and those that still have them won't lose them.

Needless to say, I'm worried that we'll end up in a great depression. In fact, not just might, probably will. Anyone out there have any stories they'd like to share about getting laid off and how they are handling the situation? Are you chanting also? If you would like to share your story on my blog please email me at katanainhawaii@gmail.com.

I will post your story in an entry. Now is the time to start gaining home from each other and faith -- we need stories of hope and success in these harsh economic times. I know that those stories are out there and I can't wait to hear them.

In the mean time, I will continue chanting for you, myself, and the rest of the world that we are not hit too hard.

Its always darkest before the light -- let's support each other through this.